sick baby

I dont know if you can really see this or not. Its a picture of a picture on my cell phone. Yesterday morning as I got ready for work, Lucas felt absolutely horrible. HE didnt want to do anything but lay down but cried if I left him in his crib. So I put a pillow and blanket on the floor outside of the bathroom while I was finishing getting ready. He laid there for ab 10 mins before he finally fell asleep. I had my phone to take a pic but not the camera. So I took the pic b/c I couldnt pass this kodak moment. but then I remembered that I cant put it on here or do anything w/ it once I took it since I have no internet or SMS on my phone. Just texting and calls...thus the picture of the picture on the camera. I hope you can see how cute this it. he was PASSED out here.  I'm taking the picture IN the bathroom looking out at the floor of our bedroom.

sick

My little guy is sick w/ his first fever this weekend. And of course it's the first full weekend that we left him w/ Eric's parents. Poor guy threw up once and had a fever of up to 101.3 one time. this was on sunday morning, yesterday. then yesterday afternoon he seemed to get better and was back to himself. But then the poor guy woke up w/ a fever this morning of 99.9. He felt so bad. He even kept putting his head down on the ground he was so tired so while I got ready this morning I put a pillow on the grond and he laid on it for ab 10 mins watching me get ready before he fell asleep. For him to lay like that for so long w/o getting up and then falling asleep there you KNOW he was sick and not feeling well. I took a pic of him on my phone and I'll try to figure out how to get it on here if I can...but my phone doesnt have internet so....I'm not sure how that'll work.

And here I am at work....just wanting to be w/ him. :/

time to put my big girl mama panties on

so......I am a little distraught this morning. Which actually surprises me. I was doing so well. This is the first weekend w/o Lucas. And I've been dreading it but I'd been handling it better than I thought I would. I was torn up inside but was keeping it together physically. We have a wedding to go to this weekend and we can't take Lucas so he's staying with my in-laws. Tonight we have the rehearsal dinner and my MIL is picking him up from my sisters house. We wont be able to get him before he goes to sleep tonight so we decide to let him spend the night and not wake him up. Also, b/c we'd have to drop him of by 1 pm tomorrow anyway b/c we have to be back at the church by 2:30 pm for pictures since Eric is a groomsman. I am excited about the wedding but I'm distraught about not seeig Lucas for a whole 48 hours!!!

I mean in all reality I gues I could see him but there really is no sense in waking him up either night to take him home; it wouldnt be fair to him. :(

So, back to this morning....I dropped Lucas off at my sisters house and Lucas BALLED when I left. I could hear him crying from the car. I went back to look in the window to see if he was calming down but he saw me and cried harder. I couldnt help it....I did what you arent supposed to do....I walked back in. I gave him a hug and treid to sooth him ut it wasnt working. He wanted ME and that was it. (he was in his high chair eating breakfast) So I just ripped off the bandaid and left. And I was crying. He broke my heart. then I started thinking ab not seeing him this weekend and I cried again.

I'll be enjoying the weekend at the wedding festivities but a big chunk of my heart will be w/ Lucas at his Mimi's house.

Wordless Wednesday....

....kind of.....I feel like these pics need an explanation.

Lucas is an only child and he's also only 11 mo old so he doesnt yet know what it's like to have a sibling or even aware that other kids really exist. But he does get to see his cousins a lot so that's a blessing.

The other day my sister was watching Lucas.My niece, Ava, is 4.5 years old and my nephew, Ethan, is 18 months old. Ava is a girly girl who loves to dress up. But Lucas doesnt have a sister to dress him up, much less know what it means to even play dress up!

Well, I walked in the front door and saw Lucas all girlied up. I about died laughing. It was the cutest most precious sight I'd ever seen! So I just HAD to take some pics!! I tried to get his attn w/ my lanyard to look at the camera but it didnt work too well. He just wanted MAMA since I'd just gotten there!

11 months old

I cant believe it's been 11 months since Lucas entered our lives after 9 long months of waiting. Thank you Lord for our beautiful baby boy!

the 2 step

and no, not the dance...though, as I have blogged before, Lucas loves to dance now. Lucas isnt walking yet but yesterday he took 2 steps a few different times during the day. you know, 2 steps here, 2 steps there....so he's for sure on the path to learning to walk! I'm hoping he'll be walking by his first birthday. He will be 11 months old this week so he has 4.5 weeks until his birthday! :)

Really? only 4.5 weeks? It just doesnt seem possible!!! I can still remember the exact moment Eric and I decided to start "trying" to have kids. Like it was yesterday! And now it's been almost 2 years since that day. Unreal.

but Daddy made me do it!

It may sound ilke an excuse.....but this time Eric really did make him do it! The opther night Lucas was playing w/ the cabinets like he usually does. opn it. close it. open it close it. He must love to watch the difference b/w being open and closed and hear the sound of it slamming shut. Here are some of the pics. Again...ERIC put Lucas in there. Lucas tried to climb in on his own once Eric showed him how to get in but he couldnt do it on his own.

Daddy showing him the cabinet

oooo look!

Eric did this...

Let me out!

Mom.....Daddy put me back in....!

Trying to do it on his own

I wonder if Eric learned his lesson yet ab not teaching Lucas things he ought not learn! :)

love sick

Can I just say that I am love sick for my family? Eric and Lucas are my life. The first 25 years of my life were spent preparing me for the day I would marry Eric. And the first 28 years of my life prepared me for the day Lucas would come into our lives. and the same goes for Eric. Since the day these two amazing men entered my life I have been forever changed. Forever. My vows come to mind: for better/worse, through good/bad and health/sickness. We are partners for life. Best friends. Soul mates. And Lucas is a product of this love. When I look at Lucas my heart beams with love, pride, joy, happiness and awe. I see his past, present and future. Well, maybe I cant see his future but I long to learn how his life will unfold and what his personality will be like. Will he always be such a happy and good natured person? Will he have a temper? will he do well in school? will he make friends easily? Will he be quick witted? Will he have a good conscience? Ok, some some of this will be determined by his upbringing and some of it will be genetics. But I can't wait to see the man he will become.

Bottom line is I adore my family and I would be devastated, as any good/normal wife and mother would be. why do I say it like that? b/c my heart broke yesterday when I read a story about a SC mother killing her own children. I read the article and tears filled my eyes. All i could think was "why?" and "how could someone do this?" As much as I love my own child......how does every parent not feel this way? Why do some parents kill their children when other couples would practically kill just to conceive or to have their child back who passed away?? this world is so unjust. I wish there was a test to determine who would be good parents and only those people be allowed to procreate. Doesnt that sound good? am I being too harsh?

Ever since I became a mom my view of life and everything in general changed. Instantaneously. I cant not think like a parent anymore. I can still think like a daughter/wife/person in general but I cant turn off mom-mode. And my mom-mode is on over-drive. I have become SUPER sensetive to anything that has to do with children being in danger or mistreated. Before Lucas, it would sadden me to hear stories but now....I guess because I think about Lucas when I read the stories...I get so distraught by it. Is this normal? Does anyone feel this way?

dancing.....king?

Lucas is SO funny! I have GOT to get a good video of him doing this (I have a couple but they arent that great). He is DANCING!!! If he hears music he will stop and dance! Or, if I say "dance! dance!" then he will do it too. Now we're talking about a 10 mo old here so his definition of dancing and ours a quite different. He dances in 2 positions- standing up or on the floor on all fours. When he is standing up he bobs up and down- knees out! (think country-music style). When he is on all fours (in a crawling position) he will rock back and forth on his hands and knees.

He's such a ham!!!!

anyone out there?

so....I was just wondering if anyone is actually reading my blog out there?! Or maybe my posts just arent the comment-generating" type? HAHA! I know I'm blogging for me.....or I say I am :) but I was just curious if anyone is still reading these? :)

mmmm bananas!

last week I started feeding Lucas bananas at dinner instead of baby food. He is doing really well w/ them and seem to really like them. In fact, he likes them so much he wanta to shove ALL the pieces in at once! :) But he has actually been really good, for the most part, at eating one at a time.

 slippery little suckers....

 dirty face

dirty hands

 look at all those toothys!!!! he has another one coming up on the bottom (his right)

and one up top w/ another under the gums

 here he is standing all by himself.

He stood up from a sitting position in the middle of the room.

heavy heart

Today I can't stop thinking about my dear friend, Rachael. She lost her baby boy a few months ago to SIDS when he was only 2 months old. Today he would have been 5 months old. I know we arent meant to understand why these things happen. Maybe it's not even our place to ask that question. But we're human and we can't help it sometimes. I think it's part of who we are to ask "why?". But only God knows why things happen the way they do and why ceratin people are taken from this life so early. Would she ever have chosen this path for herself? I dont think so. Who would? But maybe that's the point. God has a special plan and purpose for our lives that is so much bigger and better than what we could create for ourselves. This is easily proven- havent you ever tried doing things YOUR way and YOUR terms and YOUR time? How'd that work out? It's so much better when we rely on Him and His wisdom.

Throughout this difficult time Rachael has been so strong and has become an even more wonderful and faithful servant of God. I look up to her in a lot of ways. I know that she is probably sick of everyone saying she is so strong. But that's because she can't see herself from our eyes. If you read this blog today, take a moment and pray a prayer of peace and understanding for Rachael, her husband Greg and their families. God bless them and keep them! Lord, please help to heal their hearts. Please comfort them today, when Tripp would have become 5 months old.

seriously?

I am not sure whether to be relieved or in disbelief. Today I took Lucas to the pediatrician for the to listen tot he noise he has been making (see my earlier blog "cause for concern"). I was all prepared w/ blankets to put on the floor so he could crawl around (NOT on their floor b/c who knows how many kids have thrown up down there) in hopes that he'd make the noise. If he wouldnt do it then I had video back up on my laptop!! But he did it while we were there so thankfully the pediatrician heard the noise first hand. but she was entirely unconcerned b/c she said it sounds like phlegm in the back of his throat and he just isnt old enough to have learned how to clear his throat yet.

I just find this so hard to believe. He makes this noise all.the.time! I mean I'm relieved that it isnt anything serious like a constricted airway but I just have a hard time that phlegm can make him make that noise all day everyday. I guess we'll find out soon though....she said to try giving him 1/2 tablespoon of Zyrtec everyday and that should help.....

so I guess we'll see what happens and for now I guess I'll stop being in denial and accept her diagnosis......

great vids!

I have always thought this video was fantastic!!! Now that I am a mom I can really appreciate it and I imagine I will be able to appreciate it more and more as Lucas (and future siblings) get older and I gain more motherly experience! :) I'm the mom

And these are just toooooo CUTE for words! I wish Lucas would laugh like these babies! He absolutely refuses to laugh! He holds it in! I have never met a baby who doesnt laugh- on purpose!

laughing twins

dog and baby

Monday, Monday....

So good to me? well, not bad anyway ;) We had a great time this weekend. Lucas went to my in-laws Friday night (which has become a little tradition this last month) and Eric and I stayed up late watching a movie and then slept in Saturday morning. Ahhhhh! My body tried to get up a few times but I wouldnt let it! :)

Saturday afternoon eric treated me to lunch at Applebee's, a little shopping at Tanger Outlets (we got some new tennis shoes) and some errand running at walmart. By this time (like 3 pm) I was SO ready to have my little man back. Ok, truth is, I was ready to go pick him up at 12:00 pm!!! I miss the little booger when he's gone. He makes me so happy. He is such a good baby. He's always smiling and always happy. Really, the only time he cries is if he SUPER hungry or tired. Or if he has fallen a little too hard. Otherwise he is just a happy-go-lucky baby who makes us happy, proud and lucky parents to have him. Man, we love our Lucas! And when he's gone its SO quiet in the house. It's odd how you get used to hearing the noise and wondering where he is and if he's getting into trouble! Like most other babies his age he manages to find the little speck of anything on the floor. We could sweep then vacuum and if there is ont little piece of something on the floor he WILL find it. It's a talent, I tell you!

Saturday we got the little man back and spent a quiet evening at home. After putting Lucas to bed Eric and I watched another movie (we love blockbuster online!). Friday night it was GI Joe (I wasnt a fan) and Saturday night I made Eric watch Ghost Dad. Ghost Dad is one of those 80s movies that, in my opinion, is like Back to the Future, teen wolf, Dirty Dancing, etc that you have to see at least once. It's a little corny, especially now that movies ahve changed so much but it's still a must-see in my opinion! :)

Sunday Eric spent the morning at Atlanta Motor Speedway racing cars w/ his BFFs. One of his BFs, Joe Fulton, is getting married this month and the racing things was part 1 of Joe's batchelor party. Part 2 will be spent in Tunica, MS this weekend. Their going golfing, shooting clay pigeons and gambling! What more could a guy ask for right? :) (Insert Tim Allen man-grunt now) Eric had a blast racing and apparently beat his friends' times by 7 seconds :) AMybe it's all the driving he routinly does in the corvette? (It's a manual too).

I spent Saturday going to see my grandparents in Cumming. My grandmother fell in the garden yesterday. She fell on a rock she has on the side of the house and it gouged her leg and she had to go to the hospital to get 13 stitches. Yikes! She seemed well yesterday. She SO enjoys seeing her great grandkids! She adores them so much! but poor Lucas, we'd only been there a little while when I started to feed him lunch and he threw it up all over the place! He was only 1/2 way through it. I still have no idea what made him throw up. Poor guy. He slept on the way home a while later and I got him some pedialite to drink. I could tell he didnt feel well. but, once we got home last night after some time at my in-laws he seemed back to him self. He had a good dinner and drank his mil w/o any probs. He was back to his happy lovable self. Who knows what it was.

All in all it was a good weekend. I hope I didnt bore you with it? Love life. Love my family. Bottom line. :)

Lucas' new trick

this week- this weekend really- Lucas has figured how to stand from sitting. He uses his hands on the floor or on toys to balance while he stands with his legs then he slowly lets go of what he's holding onto- the floor or the toy- and he's standing! For some reason though, once he gets up he cant stand up ALL the way...he stays bent at the waist a little bit. :)

Here's a pic of the final product before he sat down- he didnt let go of the toy either.....

mommy's boy

since I'm always the photographer I rarely get any pics taken of me. so the other night I asked Eric to. These arent the best pics of me since I'm not very photogenic but I'll take what I can get. I think you can click these to make them bigger.

I love the way he's cradeling my face in this picture!

Ok, Terrible picture of me but now you can see that he has by brown eyes. But I think they have a hint of green from Eric's hazel eyes.

cause for concern?

Ever since I can remember Lucas has made this really strange sound when he's crawling around. But there are also times when he does it when he's sitting down in his high chair or even asleep. I've tried to mention it to the pediatrician before but it's impossible to explain and even more impossible to imitate. The best thing I could describe it as is a grunt through his windpipe/throat as if he's not getting enough air or as if his esophogus is too small or tightens to much and you can hear the air come in and out. It's more of a grunt than a wheeze or breath.

It's the strangest thing. I actually took some vids last night to try to get the sound on video so that when I take him to the pediatrician- hopefully next week- if he doesnt do it for her then I'll have the video/sound for proof. but last night he was cooperating. I'll post it on here too if I can to see if y'all have any thoughts.

It doesnt seem to bother him. But Eric and I are getting increasingly alarmed by it since we dont know what causes it.

Update on my last post

Apparently there is some question about the site that is offering the free nursing cover but it appears that this is true and I'll tell you for myself when I get mine next week. And the website also addresses the issue. This blogger mom got one (and one of her readers too) and loves it.

FREE!!!

For you breastfeeding moms out there.......if you are anything like me you resorted to receiving blankets to cover up when nursing b/c you couldnt quite figure out how to use the nursing cover you got at your baby shower. It was super cute and seemed to be the perfect gift yet you got tangled up every time you tried to use it. Then, when using the receving blankets the baby was so covered up it was impossible to see what you were doing and still stay covered at the same time. Ok maybe it was just me that had the issues...! :)


Anyway, I have the answer to our (my) prayers!! This website http://www.uddercovers.com/ is having a sale on their nursing covers! They are FREE! (Normally $32) All you have to do is pay shipping which is $9.95. This is for real; I literally JUST bought one for me!! Their gift sets are also on sale for only $5!!! And those are normally priced at $45. Again, all you have to pay is the shipping and handling!! You really cant beat this deal. $10 for a nursing cover- a NICE one- is a great buy. the site says the covers are built so that you can look down and still see what is going on down there :) I like the sound of that. I know I wont be able to use this for a while- until we finally decide to have our next baby- but I like to plan ahead!

When you go to check out the promo code is "breastfeeding". I dont know when the promo ends so hurry! Go now!

so close yet so far away.

In reality, a month a a half in not that far away.....but when you are looking forward to something that is that far away it seems to take forever to get here!! what's in a month and a half? Lucas' birthday!!! I can't believe it. I literally can not fathom that it has been almost a year since he has been born. And I'm really not so sure that I want the next month and a half to go by quickly. I want to slow it down, actually. I want to savor these days and remember them always. I already cant remember him being a newborn. In 4-5 years when he starts school will I remember him the way he is now? Oh, how I want to! I've been trying to take videos fairly regularly so I can look back on him at this age.

there is once video that I took of him around 6 wks old that I love to go back and watch now. And I imagine in 5, 10, 15 years I'll still come back to watch it and others to remember these sweet, precious days! this is the video I'm talking about: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0sfk3NuHQbY My how time has flown since I took that video.

random thought....

what is the difference in size b/w 2T and 24 months???? Is there one??

brown eyed boy

Can we remake the song? "your my brown eyed boy". Ok, maybe not. But look at those eyes! Did he get those from me or what!?

Lexi

Every now and then I will get emails forwarded to me from my BFF Jackie that she has received about animals that are lookig for good homes for one reason or antoher. Normally I will glance at the photo, say "aw" and hope it goes to a good home- not giving the email or animal another thought.

But the other week when I got one of these emails I saw the picture of the dog and thought to myself how pretty she was and what it was a shame we couldnt take her. We have 2 dogs as it is and a 10 mo old. Plus we work full time so when would we be able to train a puppy?! Well, all that being said, I was still inclined to forward this email to Eric. I NEVER do this! To my surprise and bewilderment he sent an email back asking what I thought about getting the dog for my sister-in-law, Morgan, who is Eric's youngest sister. She will be 18 in October so we thought this would be a great bday present. She is SUPER animal lover and has been wanting a dog for the lingest time. they used to have dogs but never got another one after the last one died.

Well, long story short (b/c there's a lot more about what we went through to decide whether to do it and when/how we got her!!!) we did go pick her up and giveher to Morgan (who we call "Mo"). Mo was so happy and excited!

When we got this beautiful puppy she was named Remi and we were told she was a Great Dane (great Scott!). Wel,, Mo renamed her Lexi and Mo found out yesterday after her vet visit that Lexi is actually part pit ull and part hound.

No matter to us- we love her just the same and she's so purty!

sleepy head

toddlerhood

I think Lucas is fast approadching toddlerhood. I took some pics of him tonight and he definitely isnt a baby any more. Gosh, they really do grow up so fast!

new tooth on top!

Last week we noticed Lucas getting his first tooth on the top of his mouth. This week it's already broken through and showing!!

Can you see it?

Here, I zoomed in.

See it? On the left of the picture (his right)?!

I think you can click on the picture to make it bigger if you cant see it. :)

I love this picture of him and the look he is giving. I could just eat him up!

some people dream about angels, I hold one in my arms

that's is the phrase I have on the wall above Lucas' bed and I think it true everytime I look into those big brown eyes of his. I call him "my angel boy" all the time.

Recently he has started tucking his arms and legs under while he sleeps. What a sweet boy.

I want some!

The other day Eric came into the bedroom with a bowl of ice cream.....and immediately caught Lucas' attention. The pictures tell a story on their own but I couldnt help narrate.....!

Whatcha got there Daddy?

I want some!

No, you can't have any!

This look is priceless! It's such a mischievous look!

Like "mommy, daddy wont give me any but just watch!"

Oh please Daddy?!

Just one little bite?

 but I love you!

 fine, I'll honk your nose!

 I'll love you forever...!

Yum!

 Can I have some more?

 mmmm Daddy this is the best!

....I mean, you're the best!

and he's off!

Last night Lucas officially took hi first step. I couldnt believe it! I think I scared him I yelled so loud!! It was incredible! Luckily it wasnt one of those things where ONLY I saw it and then no one believes me b/c he wont do it again....Eric and his parents saw it too! What a big boy! Yesterday he was 10 mo and 6 days old. Another milestone to add to his baby book!

It's so funny every one says once they start walking  it's all over now"......course they said that ab crawlig too.....but in my eyes, the fun is just beginning! We are enjoying this stage w/ him so much!!! Our little man is getting so big! Tomorrow I"m going to wake up and he'll be 18 and graduating HS......at least it'll feel that way so I"m really trying to savor these moments.