It's a cliche saying....but ti's true. do things always come in 3's....good or bad? Earlier this year Eric had to get his gall bladder out. Earlier this month Lucas got Roseola which caused him to ahve a febrile seizure and now I have a cyst on my right ovary the size of a saftball and have to have the whole ovary removed unless they can save it, which is unlikely.
Please pray for my peace of mind. I know it will be fine...but it's just "antoher" thing to deal with. And I'm aggravated b/c I'd been saving my vacation and sick time this whole year for going out on maternity leave for the next baby in a couple years (it takes a long time to save up 12 weeks of pay) and now I'll be starting ALL OVER AGAIN since I'll be out 4-6 weeks with surgery. UGH!!!!!!!
Surgery prob wont be until mid-december....
WHY?!
Monday, November 22, 2010
Thursday, November 18, 2010
the gift of life
ramblings of a worry-wart mother......
I feel as though God is constantly reminding me of the fragility life. It is so precious and wonderful yet can be taken away in a heartbeat. Each breath HE gives us is a gift and we aren't promised our next breath. I truly believe that. I believe that each of us is put on this Earth for a reason and brought into each life's for a specific purpose. Not only that, but I also feel that we go through certain things in life (or others around us go through it and we are there to support them) and those things help shape the people we will become. I know that we've all been through some really great things, but we've also had some really rotten things happen. but we are who we are because of those experiences, life lessons and people whose paths we've crossed. I cant begin to understand why we have to go through some of those harrific things and why bad things happen to good people. I could never turn my back on God during these times but I can see how some people have. B/c in those moments of asking "why", there is no answer and it's impossible to understand and thus people turn their backs on God instead of turning their hearts towards Him. B/c he must not live us if he let it happen, right? WRONG. Suffering isnt easy. It's the hardest thing to go through. You dont know when it will end and usually only time will heal the wounds the hurt causes.
Our recent scare w/ Lucas was enough of a scare that I hope we never have to deal w/ anything similar again. (I'll blog about it later.) Even though he is fine now I couldnt image the pain if it had taken a turn for the worse and what parents go through when it does turn worse. We were lucky. We still have our little guy. Thank you Jesus. It's only by his Grace that it wasnt a more serious situation. But what ab all of those people who HAVE lost their little ones? Why didnt their little ones pull through too? How does God know which people to choose to go through certain battles?
Too many questions w/ no answers.
Boy, I sound like a debbie-downer, but really, these are things that run through the back of my head that I pray daily for God to give me peace about. I dont want to live my life in fear of what will happen and miss life along the way. I love life and I love my family and I love each and every moment we have together. I try not to take a single day or moment for granted but rather cherish each and every one.
But there is a reason why I tell both Eric and Lucas as often as I can how much I love them. There is a reason why I kiss them hello and goodbye everytime we see each other or part. There is a reason why everytime I put Lucas in his carseat I ask the Lord to "keep us and protect us" and kiss his head. I just worry so much that one day I wont do it and that'll be the day they are taken from me. I have a heavy heart somedays that Eric's, mine or Lucas' lives will be cut short. But I have been extra vigilant in reminding myself that we are the Lord's and He will only take us when He's ready to call us home. He is in control. Lucas isnt mine- he's God's. That's a hard pill to swallow.
Does anyones else every feel this way??? Or am I just rambling and not making sense?
I feel as though God is constantly reminding me of the fragility life. It is so precious and wonderful yet can be taken away in a heartbeat. Each breath HE gives us is a gift and we aren't promised our next breath. I truly believe that. I believe that each of us is put on this Earth for a reason and brought into each life's for a specific purpose. Not only that, but I also feel that we go through certain things in life (or others around us go through it and we are there to support them) and those things help shape the people we will become. I know that we've all been through some really great things, but we've also had some really rotten things happen. but we are who we are because of those experiences, life lessons and people whose paths we've crossed. I cant begin to understand why we have to go through some of those harrific things and why bad things happen to good people. I could never turn my back on God during these times but I can see how some people have. B/c in those moments of asking "why", there is no answer and it's impossible to understand and thus people turn their backs on God instead of turning their hearts towards Him. B/c he must not live us if he let it happen, right? WRONG. Suffering isnt easy. It's the hardest thing to go through. You dont know when it will end and usually only time will heal the wounds the hurt causes.
Our recent scare w/ Lucas was enough of a scare that I hope we never have to deal w/ anything similar again. (I'll blog about it later.) Even though he is fine now I couldnt image the pain if it had taken a turn for the worse and what parents go through when it does turn worse. We were lucky. We still have our little guy. Thank you Jesus. It's only by his Grace that it wasnt a more serious situation. But what ab all of those people who HAVE lost their little ones? Why didnt their little ones pull through too? How does God know which people to choose to go through certain battles?
Too many questions w/ no answers.
Boy, I sound like a debbie-downer, but really, these are things that run through the back of my head that I pray daily for God to give me peace about. I dont want to live my life in fear of what will happen and miss life along the way. I love life and I love my family and I love each and every moment we have together. I try not to take a single day or moment for granted but rather cherish each and every one.
But there is a reason why I tell both Eric and Lucas as often as I can how much I love them. There is a reason why I kiss them hello and goodbye everytime we see each other or part. There is a reason why everytime I put Lucas in his carseat I ask the Lord to "keep us and protect us" and kiss his head. I just worry so much that one day I wont do it and that'll be the day they are taken from me. I have a heavy heart somedays that Eric's, mine or Lucas' lives will be cut short. But I have been extra vigilant in reminding myself that we are the Lord's and He will only take us when He's ready to call us home. He is in control. Lucas isnt mine- he's God's. That's a hard pill to swallow.
Does anyones else every feel this way??? Or am I just rambling and not making sense?
Friday, November 12, 2010
another hike
so, Oct 16 we went to the tallulah gorge (see my last blog) and the following weekend, October 23rd, we went to Amicalola and did some real hiking (not just stairs and climbing over boulders). It was absolutely gorgeous!!! We had the best time. It was nothing but nature and the occasional other hiker. We hiked about 5 miles that day and had a blast. Here are some pics:
Me and the Lukester
I love our Ergo! It's well worth the $ in general, not to mention for times like this!!
lunch time!
getting grapes from Daddy
yummy milk. A little boy works up a thirst w/ all that hiking! ;)
We hiked at Amicalola Falls on Saturday then Sunday we went up to Springer mtn and did another 4-4.5 miles. Again, it was GORGEOUS!! the leaves were at their peak that weekend!
this is the view from the top of Springer mtn where the Appalachian Trail begins
Me and the Lukester
I love our Ergo! It's well worth the $ in general, not to mention for times like this!!
lunch time!
getting grapes from Daddy
yummy milk. A little boy works up a thirst w/ all that hiking! ;)
The handsome hubs
I just like this pic
We hiked at Amicalola Falls on Saturday then Sunday we went up to Springer mtn and did another 4-4.5 miles. Again, it was GORGEOUS!! the leaves were at their peak that weekend!
this is the view from the top of Springer mtn where the Appalachian Trail begins
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
tallulah gorge
3 weeks ago, on a whim, Eric and I took Lucas on our first family hiking trip- just the 3 of us. We debated where to go- I really didnt want to over do it since I'm so out of shape. We thought ab Stone Mountain, Kennesaw mtn, and a place we've been to before, Angel Falls by Lake Rabun. But we finally settled on the Tallulah Gorge. I've been to the Gorge overlook, but never IN the gorge. Oh my.....I had no idea what I was in for...!!!
I turned Lucas around that morning for the first time in MY car. I was SO against it b/c of safety reason but he'd been crying for almost 2 weeks. The day I turned him around he stopped crying in the car so much.....so, I'll say it was worth it.
Before the hike: do you see Lucas??
Tehre he is!
at the top of the gorge- no "hiking" yet.
After descendint 500 stairs you get to the bottom. this is what you see to the left
And tot he right:
A person to get some perspective...BTW, she fell into the water right after I took this pic....
WE climbed over the river just like you see the lady doing in the pic above. that took ab 20 mins alone- it was HARD! the rocks are BIG and FAR apart! Once across you climb over big rocks and walk for a bit in the trees and ome to an opening- Look, it's our own infinity pool! :p We could have kept going but it was getting dark, since we startedt his adventure late in the day, and we didnt want to risk it.
My family <3
Looking back I can say I had fun....but while I was there I was miserable!!! There were LOTS of bolders to climb and 500 steps to descend/ascend to get in/out of the gorge. Uff! I'd do it again though.....once I'm in better shape and perhaps when we dont have Lucas---b/c of all the boulders!! I had NO idea!
I turned Lucas around that morning for the first time in MY car. I was SO against it b/c of safety reason but he'd been crying for almost 2 weeks. The day I turned him around he stopped crying in the car so much.....so, I'll say it was worth it.
Before the hike: do you see Lucas??
Tehre he is!
at the top of the gorge- no "hiking" yet.
After descendint 500 stairs you get to the bottom. this is what you see to the left
And tot he right:
A person to get some perspective...BTW, she fell into the water right after I took this pic....
WE climbed over the river just like you see the lady doing in the pic above. that took ab 20 mins alone- it was HARD! the rocks are BIG and FAR apart! Once across you climb over big rocks and walk for a bit in the trees and ome to an opening- Look, it's our own infinity pool! :p We could have kept going but it was getting dark, since we startedt his adventure late in the day, and we didnt want to risk it.
My family <3
Looking back I can say I had fun....but while I was there I was miserable!!! There were LOTS of bolders to climb and 500 steps to descend/ascend to get in/out of the gorge. Uff! I'd do it again though.....once I'm in better shape and perhaps when we dont have Lucas---b/c of all the boulders!! I had NO idea!
Happy Halloween!!!
We took him to the trunk-or-treat at church
w/ his cousin Ethan
Hi mom!
A piece of candy in each hand!
Digging for more candy
@ home waiting on more trick-or-treaters to come. He did NOT want to be inside!!!
Shaking the nerds candy boxes like maracas
He wanted to walk away w/ all the families and kids as they were leaving!!!
I love this face!!!! He thinks he was getting away w/ walking away!
Trying to escape!
This is what I got every time I brought him inside- in b/w kids coming to the door.
I wanna go outside mom!
Please????
w/ his cousin Ethan
Hi mom!
A piece of candy in each hand!
Digging for more candy
@ home waiting on more trick-or-treaters to come. He did NOT want to be inside!!!
Shaking the nerds candy boxes like maracas
He wanted to walk away w/ all the families and kids as they were leaving!!!
I love this face!!!! He thinks he was getting away w/ walking away!
Trying to escape!
This is what I got every time I brought him inside- in b/w kids coming to the door.
I wanna go outside mom!
Please????
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
gold rush days
my mom and I started a new little tradition a fwe years ago of going to Gold Rush days each October. Unfortunately we missed it last year b/c Lucas had just been born and I completely forgot about it since I was completely consumed by him. I really wanted to take him last year too! But we got to go this year and I got some really neat stuff! One thing that I didnt like was the # of similar booths. Do there really need to be 5 or more booths dedicated to girls hairbows or dresses??? Ick. MAybe I say this b/c I' dont have a daughter. And there were a few other booths that I wondered how they got approved b/c their "craft" or "service" was just silly. I say get rid of the duplicate or silly booths and make way for more CRAFTS!!
Here are the goodies I got (minus the yard sign I havent taken a pic of)
I'm going to hand these from the tree in the front yard
cute door hanger!
Here are the goodies I got (minus the yard sign I havent taken a pic of)
I'm going to hand these from the tree in the front yard
the artist that drew this was at the festival and signed this for Eric. He's going into retirement!
I also got a yard sign that says "our pumkin patch" and has our names on it- it's so cute!
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Monday, October 11, 2010
weekend
After work on Friday Eric and I took Lucas to Ruby Tuesday for dinner. He had his first full table food meal from a restaurant. He loved it all. Mushrooms, zuchini, cottage cheese, ham, cucumber, tomato, cheese, grapes, french fries :), etc. Practically anything that was on the salad bar or our plates. And hey, did you know that Ruby tuesday is now doing rolls?! They are too small, but they're good! :)
After dinner we ran to the store to get all the food for tailgating Saturday. By tome we got home (930 pm) and done w/ prparing the food we didnt get to bed until 11:30 pm!! Then I had to get up at 530 to get ready then finish making the food. We still got out the door 25 mins later than "planned". I just cant get out the door on time! :/
We took Lucas to my SIL Leslie's for her and bryan and my other SIL Morgan to watch him while we go to the game. they graciously accepted to keep him for the day since he refuses to nap at the game and it's just so hard on him when he stays awake that long. he had fun w/them going to a pupkin patch (his 3rd in a week!).
We had a great time tailgating as usual. we had great food and great friends. It felt like old times b/c the satellite wasnt working so we spent the day standing around and talking instead of staring at a TV screen. I never watch the TV b/c I could care less what's on but the guys really missed it! We've already ordered the replacement part and hope it works for next week! I made potato skins for the first time ever and they turned out well. they were actually really tasty! I'm getting better ab this cooking stuff! LOL!
sunday was chore and errand day. All in all it was a great weekend and as usual, way too short. Lucas at Home Depot:
After dinner we ran to the store to get all the food for tailgating Saturday. By tome we got home (930 pm) and done w/ prparing the food we didnt get to bed until 11:30 pm!! Then I had to get up at 530 to get ready then finish making the food. We still got out the door 25 mins later than "planned". I just cant get out the door on time! :/
We took Lucas to my SIL Leslie's for her and bryan and my other SIL Morgan to watch him while we go to the game. they graciously accepted to keep him for the day since he refuses to nap at the game and it's just so hard on him when he stays awake that long. he had fun w/them going to a pupkin patch (his 3rd in a week!).
We had a great time tailgating as usual. we had great food and great friends. It felt like old times b/c the satellite wasnt working so we spent the day standing around and talking instead of staring at a TV screen. I never watch the TV b/c I could care less what's on but the guys really missed it! We've already ordered the replacement part and hope it works for next week! I made potato skins for the first time ever and they turned out well. they were actually really tasty! I'm getting better ab this cooking stuff! LOL!
For the game one of our friends invited us up to his parents box and it was so cool! I felt special beign up there w/ all the "big wigs" :). Here is the view we had:
how much is that....baby...in the....box?
the other night Lucas and Eric were playing. Here, Eric put Lucas in a box. Lucas wasnt too happy ab it so we took him out. but then he wanted to do it again- by himself! :) Later, Eric showed Lucas how to crawl through the box. it's the little things.....
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Jaemor farm
great farmer's market. not so great pumpkin patch :/ We'll be going back to Burt's next year. There were very few photo ops. The pumpkins were more expensive, the selection wasnt as good and if you wanted to go to the field where they have most of the pumkins you had to pay $3 just to go in or $12 to go pick one which was twice the price of buying one off the shelf. So I got noe from the store instead. I was very pleased w/ all the food we got. But the whole reason we went- to see and get pumpkins- was no where close to Burts. We still had fun though!
indian giver
So, it's not "PC" to call someone an "indian giver" anymore....so what do you call them? Let me just say this.....if you give someone something-no matter why you gave it- and then change your mind over a year later that you suddenly want it back.....IT'S TOO LATE!! you gave it to me. I offered no less than 5 times to pay for what you gave me- in person multiple times, via email, via text and via FB- but you wouldnt give me a price. I was under the impression that what you gave me was mine to keep. When I offered to pay and you didnt respond then it was obvious to me it was mine to keep....or you would've said "just use it for now and I'll get it from you later." Instead you gave NO response to my requests to pay you. That's your own fault.
I guess it's a good thing I'm too nice and decided to give it back to you. Honestly, some of it I've already given away to others or consigned b/c I thought it was mine to keep and thus do what I want w/ it. So you'll get back what I have left. I didnt use it anyway. So there! (LOL!)
And by saying "I hope it wasnt a problem" doesnt fix things. Of course it was a problem. I spent 3 hours of my life sorting through all the stuff you gave to get out the few things I kept. Then I had to spend another hour of my life (that could've been spent doing other, more important things) to go through my stuff to retrieve "yours". Thanks a lot. Actually, thanks for nothing.
Sorry for those who are confused. Just know that if you give someone something then you need to make it very clear whether you are giving it or letting the person borrow it. And if you give it then dont ask for it back.
I wish I wasnt so nice.
I guess it's a good thing I'm too nice and decided to give it back to you. Honestly, some of it I've already given away to others or consigned b/c I thought it was mine to keep and thus do what I want w/ it. So you'll get back what I have left. I didnt use it anyway. So there! (LOL!)
And by saying "I hope it wasnt a problem" doesnt fix things. Of course it was a problem. I spent 3 hours of my life sorting through all the stuff you gave to get out the few things I kept. Then I had to spend another hour of my life (that could've been spent doing other, more important things) to go through my stuff to retrieve "yours". Thanks a lot. Actually, thanks for nothing.
Sorry for those who are confused. Just know that if you give someone something then you need to make it very clear whether you are giving it or letting the person borrow it. And if you give it then dont ask for it back.
I wish I wasnt so nice.
The party
We had a great party for Lucas on 9/26/10. It ended up raining but the party was great and I was proud of myself for successfully pulling off his party :) W/ the help and suggestions from my sister, a coworker and the internet I thought the decorations turned out great. I'm not usually the type of person to boast ab myself....but seeing how UNcreative and NONcrafty I am, I was proud of how it all turned out. So thanks for letting me pick your brains Jennifer and Carmeana!!!!
There are a lot of pics here. Enjoy!
This is the "before" pic of all the party stuff.
The next fw pics are the signs my SIL, Morgan, made for the party she did SUCH a good job!!!!!
I love this one- it was a 3-D poster!!!
I bought this one at walmart :)
the table decorations
The food table (we had to move the party to the garage b/c of the rain)
A closer view. If you look closely you can see the tablecloth is a road.
Cookies I made to look like tools. I got the cookies cutters at http://www.thecookiecuttershop.com/
the front of the house
Ha....I made the top 1/2 of this poster and it looks like a 2nd grader did it....now you know why I asked Morgan to do the others. she finished the poster for me. Again, she did an awesome job!!!
The yard
the birthday boy!!!!
Talking w/ Megan and Austin's puppy, Grizz. (Megan is Eric's sister and Austin is her hubby :))
One of his new fav toys from my grandmother. He love it!!!
Lucas w/ his grandpa's. My dad is holding Lucas and Eric's dad is on the right.
Eric thanking everyone for coming. then I said something and teared up. I'm such a sap!!!!
My nephew, Matthew in the middle w/ 2 of his second cousins (my cousin's boys)
My mom and her two youngest grandbabies, Lucas and Anna. Anna is 3 mo younger than Lucas.
the "smash" cake I made.
Happy Birthday Lucas!!!!!!!!!!!
the absolutely amazing, beautiful and creative cake my SIL, Megan, made for Lucas. She is a chef!!! Great job Megan!!!
Eric and Ethan, another nephew. He is 6 mo older than Lucas.
Ha! I love this pic b/c it looks like Lucas is giving Ethan the evil eye for getting near his 4-wheeler!
Presents!!!!
He took a long nap after the party and then played w/ all his presents when he woke up. He stills plays w/ them and loves them so much!!! he got some GREAT stuff!!!
There are a lot of pics here. Enjoy!
This is the "before" pic of all the party stuff.
The next fw pics are the signs my SIL, Morgan, made for the party she did SUCH a good job!!!!!
I love this one- it was a 3-D poster!!!
I bought this one at walmart :)
the table decorations
The food table (we had to move the party to the garage b/c of the rain)
A closer view. If you look closely you can see the tablecloth is a road.
Cookies I made to look like tools. I got the cookies cutters at http://www.thecookiecuttershop.com/
the front of the house
Ha....I made the top 1/2 of this poster and it looks like a 2nd grader did it....now you know why I asked Morgan to do the others. she finished the poster for me. Again, she did an awesome job!!!
The yard
the birthday boy!!!!
Talking w/ Megan and Austin's puppy, Grizz. (Megan is Eric's sister and Austin is her hubby :))
One of his new fav toys from my grandmother. He love it!!!
Lucas w/ his grandpa's. My dad is holding Lucas and Eric's dad is on the right.
Eric thanking everyone for coming. then I said something and teared up. I'm such a sap!!!!
My nephew, Matthew in the middle w/ 2 of his second cousins (my cousin's boys)
My mom and her two youngest grandbabies, Lucas and Anna. Anna is 3 mo younger than Lucas.
the "smash" cake I made.
Happy Birthday Lucas!!!!!!!!!!!
the absolutely amazing, beautiful and creative cake my SIL, Megan, made for Lucas. She is a chef!!! Great job Megan!!!
Eric and Ethan, another nephew. He is 6 mo older than Lucas.
Ha! I love this pic b/c it looks like Lucas is giving Ethan the evil eye for getting near his 4-wheeler!
Presents!!!!
He took a long nap after the party and then played w/ all his presents when he woke up. He stills plays w/ them and loves them so much!!! he got some GREAT stuff!!!
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